very bad day… my family is having a lot of trouble…

i cant find my place…

a day off doesnt feel like a day off… always have so much to do…

never creative as i want to be…

the move is sapping alot of my energy… its hard finding the right house when you dont even live there…

drained…

passed weapons class…

how fucking hard is it to sell a motorcycle…

not as easy as disappointing someone…

the boat builder
ohh ive forgotten
unable to trace
it out
home
feels so subtle
even here on the ground
scream so loud
drown me

you said i wouldnt last
you

ohh the last
the one that kills
the pills that are lovers still
but only covering the years
the failings

and to your satisfaction
i cannot last
its all even somehow

ohh the sound
drown me out
and you cry
but baby i did try
but we drowned
within sound
you saved me once too many times
i would stay
and fix it all
but im beaten now
and we’re capsized
surrounded now
and sinking now

you see her drowning
ohh the sound
drown me out

so fucking tired…. so much bullshit…

no one…

my soon to be home… and no one to miss me…

still havent shot… im feeling very bomb-like right now…

my audio work station is almost complete… muah ha ha…

PS- photoshop cs3 and lightroom KICK ASS!